I was invited to attend the screening last month in LA but all opinions are truly my own.
I was in LA and was invited to attend the screening of The Light Between Oceans not really knowing the story line, nor having watched the trailer, which I normally do before attending screenings. I went totally in the dark, motivated for a chance to meet my long time online friend Marshall Weinbaum in person, which was totally the icing on the cake!!
What happened from the start of the movie was a turmoil of emotions, which touched me deeply and brought me back to my own life choices! That’s when you know a movie is successful, it’s when the story telling connects with you in a deeper way, giving a whole new meaning to your experience as a movie goer.
I have decided to tell you my own light between the oceans story, a very intimate and private story most of my friends and US acquaintances don’t know.
I had a child when I was 19 in Brazil. Very immature and living one of the worse times in my life, I was not ready to have that child. I also chose not to tell the child’s father I was pregnant, for so many reasons, always putting my son’s best interest first. After giving birth, I had to go to work to help my parents support my child and go to college at the same time, which was not easy. I felt cheated out of my youth, I was extremely unhappy with the way I looked, the life I was living and really not ready for motherhood.
My mom watched my son while I went to work endless hours as a store manager at a travel agency at the airport. My son’s affection and love for my mom grew deeper as I desperately tried to put my life together! We needed to add him to my dad’s health insurance when I turned 21, so we signed papers, giving my parents parental rights, all having my son’s best interest in mind. Choices I’ve made and don’t regret.
But every choice and every step seemed to separate us even further….then he turned 3. I was in a much better place financially and bought my own place, hired a nanny to watch him, but it was too late…he would cry endless nights, the same way I saw that little girl crying in the movie….he loved me but didn’t want to stay with me, even though I was his real mother. He wanted to go back to the mother he knew, the one who raised him. He was too young to understand my struggles and that I did most of what I did to be able to one day offer him a good life!
I once more, did what was right for him and let him go back and live with my parents. I’m not going to lie, that choice broke my heart, but I knew deep inside, it was the best for my son, so I did it!
Fast forward a few years later, I was engaged, ready to move to the US, my son was 9. I invited him to come with me and he said he was not going to leave his friends, his country and his family. My heart was once more torn apart but I didn’t force him, I did what was right and let him make his own choices. I allowed him to stay with my parents and live the life he chose to have.
Today, our relationship has been rocked to the point that we stopped speaking….his choice again, that I respected, even though I didn’t understand. We recently made peace in my last trip to Brazil and I hope it’s the first steps to opening his heart.
I know deep inside he blames me, I often think what if I had fought for him, what if I had forced him to stay with me….come with me to the US….what ifs don’t make our lives, our real choices do.
My son is 24, he will be graduating law school at the end of 2016, he has a loving girlfriend and still lives with my parents. Looking at his life, I feel the comfort that things happen for a reason and I’m happy for him!
When you watch the movie you will understand why the story touched me so deeply, stirring old emotions I thought I had buried inside of me! I truly hope the choices I’ve made or allowed him to make, will one day be understood by him and my light between oceans will show the way to having his trust and love back.
I cried all through the movie, comparing my story and choices with the ones lived by the characters. Bring your tissues, I know you will cry too!
After sharing my story, the first time I’ve done it on my blog, I want to invite you to watch “The Light Between Oceans”, which shares a story of a couple (Michael Fassbender, Alicia Vikander) who reside in an Australian lighthouse discover a baby in a boat along with a dead body. They decide to raise the child, a choice that leads to devastating consequences.
It’s a beautiful love story contoured by tragedy lived in a breathtaking environment! The beautiful ocean scenes and photography alone are worth seeing!
Here is the trailer:
I can’t wait to hear what you think about the movie and hope you’ve enjoyed reading a more intimate post on my blog! After all this Trendy Latina has more than shoes to share with you!
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